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    【】deryandiginesheisinlovebroideryitself,as    syolizinglife,stohersobeautiful.veryprobablysheiser    thedesignofapairofndarindueonespilloandarinducks    together,ogetherinpairs,oheother    fele.ifshestretuch,sheisliabletetherselfand    keaitch.shetriesagain,butitgoesthe    silkenthread,alittletoohard,anditslipsoutoftheneedle.shebitesherlipsand    feelsannoyed.sheisinlove.    thatfeelingofannoyaavagueuhing,perhapsatspringandthe    floingsenseoflonelinessintheuressignof    agirpsturityforloveandrriage.htherepressionsofsocietyandsocial    ions,agirldidherbesttoverupthisvagueandstrongyeaing,but    subnsedopreritalloveinold    a,openurtshippossible,andshekoloveosuffer.forthatreason,shedaredherthoughtsdoofondlyonthespringandthe    flobolsofloveinapoetry,andifshe    uchtiory,lesther    etioouched,tooprofoundly.shekeptherselfbusyedutiesand    guardedherfeelingsassaature    ntacteshouldewhenlove    arriage,andhappyapedall    entasofpassiouresotisnqueredinspiteofallhun    restraints.forlikeallforbiddenfruits,thekeennessofsexualattraed    byitsrarity.itpensation.onceagirlsheartracted,    agtotheesetheory,lovestoppedatnothing.thatuallythe    nbeliefbaarefulseclusionofen.    eveninherdeepestsearriageable    youngnofherclassintolydistributedherapprovalanddisapproval    inherheart.ifbyehough    itorethanlikelyshesuued,andhadnore    ofthepeaindof,stolen    urtshipbegan.inspiteofthefaeandoften    suicideandinspiteofthefullnscioushatbysodoingshewasdefyingall    desofralnduan.    andlovealwaysfoundaway.    iualattraofsexitpossibletosayooingand    anyingeniousakingherprese.    thestinnoallredshoesbehewooden    partitions.anotherandingontheverandahatsu.anotherwas    as.ahe    laivalsofjanuaryandjunight.anotherhe>a    stringedinstrunt,aingtheyoungnihousehearit.another    heteacherofheryoungerbrothertorrectherpoetry,htheyounger    brotherasthessengerboy.theteacher,ifheantic,ghtsend    averseinreply.stillanotheransofnicationaidservant,or    thesyatheticsisterinlaheoksdoor,orthenun.ifboth    partieseetinguldalh    etingselyuhy;theyounggirldidnolknooprotect    herself,andlove,ebackharevenge,    asalleselovestoriesportray,htetoexpecta    akingfollowed,overp    aender,preauseitolen,andgenerallytoohappytolast.    inthissituationanythingghthappen.theyoungno:theyoungladyght    beebetrothedtoothersbyoftheirohegirlregrethavinglost    heanghtgoain;suinations,ghthaveabyaredistinguishedfaly.or    ohefaliesghtvetoayaneverseeeachother    again.oreveniftheyoungnsojouingabroadshouldreinfaithful,yetawar    ghtebetightbeinternableinganddelay.forthe    youngideherewasonlysadnessandlonging.if    thegirleseriouslylovesickhis    azinglynineselovestories,her    eyes,andherparents,alardatthesituation,akeinquiriesand    saveherlifebyarrangingthedesiredrriage,andsoafteralltheyghtlivehappily    everafter.    lovetheearsandsadnessandlonginginesethought,andthe    effectofthisseclusionofenointroduceaplaintive,languoroustoneinall    eselovepoetry.anyeselovesongafterthetangdynastyisinvariablyone    oflonging,resignationandinfinitesadness.oftenitisthesongofthesecluded    idenpiningforherlover,orkhatoftheforsakenhof    elyfavouritetopicsalepoets.    nsonanththegeneraliveattitudetohinesesongsofloveare    songsofabsence,ofdeparture,offrustratedhopesandunquenchablelonging,ofrain    aychaerandthe”ldbed,”ofsolitaryregretand    hatredagainstnsinnstandthecastan,ofdepartingspring    andfadedblossoandfadiy,oftheflickeringdlelightas    andgeneraleoodfindsits    typibeforeherapproagdeath,aftershek    herusinepaoyiiswi    ...